So this is what alone was like...

So, apparently I’ve forgotten how to be alone in my own house. J has been off on a mini-training thing for work, so I’ve been on my own for a few days. I knew I would miss him, but I didn’t know how weird it would be. For a house with nine (9!!!) animals in it, it gets awfully quiet there at night when I’m the only person there! The animals all lie down and go to sleep shortly after they get their dinner, and then it’s just me. Me, sitting at my Sims computer, playing and watching TV at the same time. And then I get bored, so I read. And I get lonely, and jump for the phone when it rings. And I wonder, how in the world did I used to spend just about every single night of my life alone, and not lose my mind? I mean, seriously.

Of course, I haven’t turned my IM on, either. That would help, because I could chat with Sarah if she’s online, or I could pester Jamie. I’m kind of out of the IM habit, though, so I didn’t even think of it. Oh well.

And living alone for these few days has been bad for me in other ways – I’ve completely regressed on my eating habits. When J is there, we somehow manage to have real food for dinner every night. Even if it’s just hot dogs and frozen French fries, we cook something up. It’s worth the effort if there are two people eating it. But since I’ve been by myself I haven’t cooked a damn thing. Monday night I had pretzel nuggets and cheese (soft cheddar cheese, that the pretzels get dipped into, yum) for dinner. Tuesday night I had a potato chip sandwich and a Krispy Kreme donut. Wednesday it was the pretzels and cheese again. Yup. It’s bad. Of course, the reason I was eating those things is because we didn’t get groceries this weekend, and I was out of real food for the most part (at least without thawing something out). Not that I would have cooked real food anyway, but at least I would have gotten some cereal and milk and had that for dinner. I was going to get groceries Monday night, but the weather was really bad, and the roads were worse, so I went straight home and stayed there. Tuesday night I couldn’t get groceries, because I had to go to a meeting after work and then I had to go straight home to take care of the dogs. The food situation got pretty desperate at that point, but the personal hygiene situation was even worse. I would have run out of body wash today, and I ran out of deodorant on Wednesday. Luckily the weather got better, and I got groceries after work on Wednesday, so my coworkers didn’t need to avert their noses when I walked by. :) But, even though I got groceries last night, I still ate pretzels and cheese for dinner. Hee.

Still, though – it turns out that you only have to live the life of a couple for a short while before you completely forget how to be single without losing your mind. I’m going to be so glad to see J walk back in that door tonight. I missed you, J! I knew I would, but I didn’t know how much.